You have already told me that. And I asked you - please do not go away from my life, I have already liked you so much! I am tied to you forever – to you, so deep, single, sharp one. To you, such a proud, such irreconcilable one. I wanted both to change you, and help you, and to play at one side with you. I did not know how to do it correctly. That's why I lost so many times, again and again and again. I told myself – well, just a little bit, and some more just a little bit, and I will give up, will leave you alone, as you often requested and ordered, while making for me everything at the same time, so I could not forget you. So, we parted. Let's throw this year away – each will throw it away of our lives. Did you really want that? Now, when I found out everything I should know much earlier, when, perhaps, any girl would have said “I hate you” - I just say “Go away easily and   never feel sorry for that”. Because once you will wake up feeling the TRUE sense of loss. I know it. I have understand you so well during this year, as I have never understand myself all my life. It is me, only me, who is responsible for everything evil you made for me. For all the evil I made for you – I am sorry. Forgive me - I say these words perhaps the first time in my life.