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Where you find your love - who knows, whole Universe is in your heart
I often hear that falling in love on the internet - it is silly. And I also always guessed so. How can you love a man whom you have never seen in life? But I have been communicating constantly for more than a year with a man, whom I loved, every day we wrote each other letter, we collected about a thousand letters during that time. I did not have anyone, who was closer to me in this world. He felt me, felt when I smiled, when I was sad, he knew what I love and what causes me pain. During all that time he did not leave me hurt, ever. If something went wrong - he was always first to apologize, try to reassure me. We lived on the same wave, we liked the same melodies, the same books. We look at the world the same way. I said him 'Have you ever seen screaming crows, whirling in the sky?' - and he understood why it could keep with the mind. He was 10-12 years older than me, he lived in another county, and I even did not know his real name, just a nickname of the chat, I saw some photos of him. And with all that I must confess – I still do not know more honest, kind, gentle and smart person, and I have never thought that such persons exist. This is my kind of people, for all one hundred percent. I have heard many times words like that, "how can you believe him, he can turn out to be thick old woman from Argentina, who just wanted fun” or “he can be an ugly beast" and much more, that depends on what can be said about internet feelings. But I trusted him - if I could not believe him, then whom can I trust to? This man became my mentor, friend, brother. But he did not became a beloved one. Most of all I want him to be happy. That's the only thing I want. Yes, I forgot to say: about half a year ago I confessed him about my feelings towards him, and he replied that he "can not connect his life with anybody”. So, that was the sad end of my story...
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